wow!!! a WINGLESS chicken…

I consider this day a very sweet day… Not a perfect one… But maybe a really great day for me and MYHN… Hehehehe…

The morning started out great… We didn’t fight nor argue… We were very sweet with each other… He was singing… I was hugging and listening to him… He would make me lambing at times… I would end up smiling like a dog… Hehehe… 

In the afternoon that’s when we officially started to call each other with our new pet names for each other… I was really into it… I kept on saying I love you MYHN… Then he would say I love you YOURS… Hehehehe… Kilig ako…

During lab time… We kinda got into a misunderstanding… He was checking my messages sa cell ko… Super… Amp!!!… And he wouldn’t even let me see his… Unfair…

Anyway… He made up for it… Nilambing na kasi ako ulit… Lakas tama ko eh… Bilis akong amuhin ni MYHN pag nagpapacute at sweet… Hahahahaha… Mahal na mahal ko talaga siya…

And when we were about to leave was the sweetest thing he did all day for me… When I went down to the 1st floor of the carpark… I saw him there at a corner… Waiting for me… With a gulaman at hand… HEhehehe… I asked him… “Bakit hindi ka pa umaalis???” Sabi niya… “Hinihintay kitang bumaba eh…” Then he gave me the gulaman for me to drink… 

After I dropped him off outside the carpark… I was super kilig… Touched and felt that I was really loved by him… For him to do that… Was once in a lifetime… So I was really flattered… And couldn’t help not to smile… Even until this very moment that I am about to finish this entry… Hehehehe…

I LOVE YOU MHYN!!!

After what happened yesterday… Me asking him if he could be mine… Led to one important stepping stone for our relationship… We both had a brilliant idea of changing what we call each other… 

He accompanied me to my car… And we got to talk about what I said… Then we sorta started calling each other by different names… I called him mine… He called me mi (short for mami… hehehe…) 

Then he agreed to calling him mine in the condition of spelling it MYHN… Para unique daw… It’s cute naman… So cge naman ako… Wahahaha… Tas siya… Namile sa mami… or mi… or mimi… Sabi ko mi na lang… Feel ko parang anak na kita kung mami…

THe next day… I started calling him MYHN… With all the conviction and love I can exert to it… Hahahaha… Then he would respond… YOURS… YOURS… YOURS…

It was during our BioSci class that we made up our minds… Since one year has past… Start anew… We would call each other… His… MYHN… I’m YOURS…

It all started yesterday… When we had an unexpected date… 

After school… I was super hungry so I asked him if he could go to Jollibee with me… Of course… Every time I ask him to come with me… He ends up showing how much he was forced to go… Which makes me so irritated at times… Anyway back to the story…

So I ate and he watched… I offered him french fries… And yet again refuses me, which made me really annoyed… That led to arguments then my tantrums… In the end all he wanted me to say was… “I insist”… My goodness gracious… SUPER ARTE… Wahahaha…

After that… We got along again… Playing around with the french fries and… Well… We were having fun… When the food was all consumed… We hang around…

The atmosphere was so nice… He became really sweet… Which ultimately made my heart feel like it was in heaven… Promise… No joke… He made me feel really loved… And wanted by him… All out of good emotions… It was really a wonderful moment… An unforgettable one for sure…

I got caught up in the moment I kinda whispered to him… “Could you be mine???” He hugged me tight… As if not allowing me to breathe and he told me… “Of course, yes…” 

This moment is worth treasuring for a whole lifetime… And it was truly like falling in love with him all over again…

I found myself in a situation wherein I was able to last a whole afternoon not trying to seek him out and getting frustrated because he wasn’t texting me… Is this a sign??? That I am actually conquering my neediness as a person??? 

Well… As of now… I’m going to call it… “Learning to love myself”… I’m kinda glad that I am feeling this way… Because when I start to become needy or just feel that I am less loved… I start to hurt… Kinda weird… I know… Causing my own pain… Dumb of me to think that way… But now I am learning to love myself more than I should love him…

I know it kinda goes with loving someone that you actually give that person love… But what’s the point in loving someone too much when they can’t love you the same way… You just end up feeling the pain… Not just you but your better half as well… Because you’ll get the feeling of actually blaming the person you love when your love is not reciprocated the way you want it to be… 

The day has come when I got to realize that he never asked me to love him that way… He never asked me to love him too much… But it isn’t a crime to love him that way… All I wanted was for him to acknowledge me… That I exist in his world… I am a part of his world… I guess that was too much to ask… 

I am slowly realizing things… And hopefully I get to discover what I am meant to be in this lifetime…