wow!!! a WINGLESS chicken…

I don’t know why I am feeling this way…

I shouldn’t…

I couldn’t…

And most of all…

I have no right to feel it…

But I am…

I am afraid…

I am afraid of losing him…

No matter what has happened to us…

There is this part of me that still wants him to stay…

That wants him to love me…

Even just a little…

I don’t want him to move on…

I don’t want him to love some else more than he loved me…

I want to be his best…

His special one…

And that scares me so much…

When the day will come when I can’t be all those things to him…

Pathetic I know…

But it is what I really feel…

I am very afraid…

Just because I know in my heart he’ll always be the guy I love completely…

Over the past few days where we officially weren’t together… I got to discover more of who you are as a person… I don’t know what to say… But it made me realize were better off as friends…

I got to understand who you are more… No biased judgment… No thinking of my feelings… You were just being you… And that made me realize were better off as friends…

I have nothing against you… Nothing at all… It’s just that it didn’t work out… You are your own person… And I am my own… We just couldn’t meet half way… That made me realize were better off as friends…

I do care for you… And what the heck… I do love you… The feelings may be strong… But our personality just got the best of us… Therefore it made me realize were better off as friends…

You couldn’t let go off the things you knew were hurting me… I got jealous… I felt disrespected… I felt like a fool… And above all… Taken for granted… But not everything is your fault… I let you take the best of me… I let you do all those things to me… We were both to blame… Now that made me realize were better off as friends…

I gave up on the hopes that we could ever get back together… Shattered hopes and dreams… Brought about by a love I am not sure of… I just have to start anew… Making dreams you aren’t a part of… Just like you said… We’re better off this way… Were just better off as friends…

In a little box…

That’s where my heart will be…

In a little box…

I leave all your memory…

In a little box…

Is where I start anew…

In a little box…

Is where the end will be…

I am learning to move on…

I am learning to live again…

In a little box I bought…

Is where i saw the beginning in the end…

I have nothing against you now…

You’ll always stay in my heart…

But now you just have to be hidden..

Every memory that I had with you…

It would be hard I know…

That’s why I have this box…

So I could make a step…

Able to move forward with my life…

I gave you my heart…

I gave you my trust…

I gave you my love…

But now it’s been torn apart…

Web of lies…

A year and 3 months in the making…

Now I doubt every second we were together… 

Was it all a lie??? Or was it really love…

Because what you’ve done makes it hard for me to believe in all of it…

YOu were my first love…

But I feel like a fool…

You make me think of many things…

Hey…

I shouldn’t blame you for it…

The feeling is fading…

Hate is dominating…

You just couldn’t stop lying…

You just keep me hurting…

You don’t understand…

That by doing it… 

Your breaking the little pieces that you left even more…

It hurts more when you constantly lie…

More than the hurt when we broke up…

I remember the first day i saw you… We were classmates… It was my birthday… And I thought you were gay…

I remember the time you first asked me for my number… I was talking about my birthday party… You just casually conversed with us then asked it from me…

I remember the first time we talked about your life… We were with sab… I ended up saying you will be my best friend with a pat at your back…

I remember the first time I ended up crying in front of you… You were telling me stories about your life… You gave me your hanky just to wipe away my tears…

I remember the night you accompanied me… I was all alone, you were with your friends… Yet you still came with me to watch the concert and we played in the fountain…

I remember the day you told me that you liked me… Evidently I was so happy… Because I knew I liked you too…

I remember the first time I held your hand and hugged you tight… I knew I was falling in deeper everytime…

I remember the first time we had a fight… You thought I was seeing someone else… You got jealous… No point denying it now…

I remember the day you said you love me… I didn’t believe you at first… I ended up laughig at you under the rain… 

I remember our first kiss… It was only suppose to be a kiss at your cheek… You end up tricking me by kissing your lips… But I liked it… Most especially the way you looked at me when I tricked you the second time we kissed…

I remember the day I said I love you too… It was after exams… We were together in the park… I faced you… And told you… You ended up teasing me about my shiny forehead…

I remember the day I agreed to be your girlfriend… I knew that time I couldn’t resist you anymore… I have fallen in love with you… You were the one for me…

I remember all the memories I had with you… It may be good or bad… But as long as I had it with you… I knew each memory will be unforgettable… But now I have to keep moving on… It will just be a memory for now… How much harder i try…. I feel like I couldn’t let you go…

Now i’m totally broken inside… Each piece you left behind… Is very hard to get it all back together… Because I don’t know where to start… So much memories… It seems it’s draining all of my energy… I have lost track of my beginning and my end… I’m totally lost in this momentary darkness your love has brought me…