I don’t know why I am feeling this way…
I shouldn’t…
I couldn’t…
And most of all…
I have no right to feel it…
But I am…
I am afraid…
I am afraid of losing him…
No matter what has happened to us…
There is this part of me that still wants him to stay…
That wants him to love me…
Even just a little…
I don’t want him to move on…
I don’t want him to love some else more than he loved me…
I want to be his best…
His special one…
And that scares me so much…
When the day will come when I can’t be all those things to him…
Pathetic I know…
But it is what I really feel…
I am very afraid…
Just because I know in my heart he’ll always be the guy I love completely…
