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Weak…

{ August 2, 2008 @ 4:15 pm } · { Emo ako ngayon... }
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He didn’t really directly say I was weak… His nature… He wasn’t always the most straight forward person with what he feels… Which sometimes what hurts me the most… How can I be there for him when I don’t really get what I was suppose to comfort him for… 

I told him… “You always want to be strong infront of me… maybe that’s how you really think I’m really weak…” All he said… “Baka nga…”

Once before he told me think what I want to think… Well maybe his really not considering of what I am feeling right now…

“Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you…” I say bullshit… You always end up hurting no matter what… Weak… Call me weak… I wouldn’t give a damn anymore… When have you cared when I shed my tears for you… Once you see me cry… All you do is stare… Why then… I always cry when it comes to you???

Not only that but you have to hit me some more… Maybe I’m over thinking it… But why is it that the signs are there… Your really not ready to give up what your life was before…

1. My comment…

2. Your email add…

Slowly… I’m really becoming weak… :(

A struggle for my pride…

{ July 22, 2008 @ 1:15 pm } · { Emo ako ngayon..., Uncategorized }
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Is it actually right what I am doing right now??? Ignoring him to make him see… Will it work??? Or will it make things worse??? Well it’s one of the first time I would actually try this method… Wahahaha…

It’s not like, I like what I am doing… I guess I am just looking for a way to reach him… ANy means… Any methods… I would try… Just to make him listen…

Most of the time when I share what I feel… “i’m making recklamo”… But seriously… I’m not… Communication is a key to a good relationship… If we can’t say what we feel to each other… What is the point of things… How can we move forward… When all that is happening to us remains stagnant because neither of us wants to make a move… 

I know it’s his style… And believe it or not… I understand… But all I want is for him to know that i’ll always be there for him… No matter what happens…

I seriously love him… With all my heart and soul…

Uncontrollable Tears…

{ July 20, 2008 @ 3:07 am } · { Emo ako ngayon... }
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Why is it that when I want to cry… I can’t cry… And when I don’t need to cry… I cry… Isn’t that a bit unfair…

I know I’m not an actress to be able to cry as I wish… But sometimes I wish I was… Just as long as I’ll be able to cry whenever I want to…

 

As far as I know… Crying was one of the things that makes me feel a whole lot better… I may have been called a cry baby ever so often… But I just really don’t care… It’s who I am as a person… And it’s how I cope with my problems…

 

I once said to a special someone not so long ago… “Masama bang umiyak pag alam mong nasaktan ka???” It’s my freedom and my choice… I may appear weak… But it doesn’t justify me as a person just because I cry so much… I am more than what my tears are…

What a blogful day…

{ July 19, 2008 @ 10:11 am } · { Emo ako ngayon... }
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And again I make a new blog post… I guess my life is full of crap… It just wants to make me cry… I really don’t give a damn who reads my entry… Or whatever you may say about me for writing these things… It’s my life… And I would do anything I want to do…

 

Writing these blogs is what makes me happy… And pretty much what makes me calm… My life… My choice… 

 

And yes… What a day it has been for me… ;p

I hurt my toe… Or is it just the toe???

{ July 19, 2008 @ 9:38 am } · { Emo ako ngayon... }
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When I was cleaning up my parents’ room… I hit my toe on the lazy bed… Well… It’s pretty obvious I get bruised a lot of times… I’m a clutz… So I get through these things every time… But the sad thing about it… It’s not only my toe that is hurting… Something else is…

 

I clean the room because I want to preoccupy myself with other things… Just to get my head distracted so as I couldn’t think of that certain thing… I guess the pain of my toe… I can get over with… But the other pain… I guess it’s part of the life i’ve chosen to live… 

 

Life doesn’t have to always be a happy experience for me… Just like everyone else tells me… Without sadness… There can never be true happiness… It’s a matter of having to find the light that can help you get through that sadness… And eventually to that happiness that you’ve been looking for…

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